Thursday, January 28, 2010
Passiveness is my Big Weakness
Mind is playing on and on about something. It starts to build. Maybe it can be conquered and it will be forgotten. But it doesn't. Instead, it comes out in some passive way. Yeah, know anyone like that? (I raise my hand and vote for myself). Miggity had started to get real crabby lately; negative about mostly everything. If I brought up an interesting idea, the first thing he'd say is why it couldn't be done. And thus, started what resulted in a passive break up attempt. I had decided after some weeks of letting this slowly build up, that I need to break up with Miggity, so I can find someone less negative and more suitable to my level of risk-taking in life (with new opportunities that is). Plus there was a damn picnic and he flaked on me while I went to discuss about real estate. He chose a picnic over real estate. So, I called him the next day and asked him to drop by. He came over Monday night. I asked him, "So what do you think if I told you let's just try and be friends?" I started to tell him why when he said, "You can do whatever you want if that's what you want, but why did you let it bottle up... why didn't you just talk to me about it?" Next thing I knew I was crying because I felt like a fool, and felt bad that I might have hurt his feelings. We had a good chat and are still together of course. Being communicative ON-TIME has always been a challenge for me. I try to "deal with frustrations" as if it's supposed to be something we need to endure/tolerate. Miggity was wonderful in how he handled me and the situation. Thank God for his ever-so-logical and clear manner. Does this mean he is my clear, bright beacon in the fog? :-)
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